kids, life and new things... been thinking

Wow today I realized just how much the kids are growing up. Nathan is learning more and more words everyday. Sophie is crawling and pulling up and cruising on the couch. I just stand back and watch the kids and I know how my mom must feel looking at her 5 kids and seeing me with 2 kids, one graduated high school, one about to graduate, one in high school and one about to be in high school. The time really does fly. It seems like yesterday we were living in Canada and playing in the snow and going to Tawas with the grandparents for the summer. This morning I actually started crying because Nate and Soph were sitting on the floor and PLAYING! Nathan was not trying to pile drive her head into the floor and Soph was smiling and laughing at him. Even though this was the first time they have interacted and Sophie did not end up hurt and crying it made me think about how they are going to grow up so fast. All this makes me realize that I need to get with it and go and do something with my life. I need to utilize the federal grants I have already been offered and go to school to show my kids that they can do something better in their lives than just graduating high school. Every day that passes I feel as if I have let my parents down somehow by not going to college, having 2 kids, not being married. Currently I am a stay at home mom and I know that it is the hardest job I have ever done. Being a mom does not compare to anything I have ever done in my life. I want to spend my time at home while the kids are little just like my mom did with all 5 of us. I know I am rambling on and on so I am going to go to bed. Tomorrow is another day and I think I am going to try and plan out my future as much as I can. I need to get the ball rolling so I can make my own money and be more independant for myself and my kids. I always wonder what would happen to us if something ever happened to Ricky. He is a smoker, overweight, has sleep apnea, and injuries from being in the Marine Corps. Again I am rambling and I am really going to bed now. I feel better now that I have written about all of this. More adventures tomorrow...

playdate with cousins..

Today, Ricky's mom brought over Nate and Soph's cousins Kayleigh and Jordan. When they got here we took the kids for a walk around the block and then came back to the house and let the kids eat some lunch. So we had a 4 year old, a 2 year old, a one year old, and a 7 month old running around my small apartment! Nathan was ok with everyone being here until he started getting tired and then he lost it. Nate started pushing Jordan down, pulling Kayleigh's hair and trying to choke his grandma Lillie. Right now the chaos has subsided Grandma and the cousins left and Nate and Soph are sleeping. When the kids wake up we will peobably eat and go for a walk again if it has not started raining yet. Today it is 78 degrees and partly cloudy. It is a bit hot for my taste but I am happy the kids are not stuck inside the house. They are so much better through the day when we can just get out and run around. Well the countdown is beginning for MiMi and Pappy's visit. They will be here April 8th- so they will be here in 29 days!!!

NATE and SOPH

I am going to start blogging about my day to day adventures with Nate(nathan) and Soph(sophie). This morning we all woke up at 7:45 (thats late!!) and had breakfast. Soph had some formula and blueberry baby food. Nate had eggies with cheese and toast. I am on a diet and I had egg whites with one piece of toast an a little bit of fat free cheese. BTW I have lost 14 pounds so far. I am losing weight so I can be a better mommy and be around longer for my babies. Anywho~ We played for a bit and then at 11:00 we went for a walk around the apartments. Today it is 70 degrees and SUNNY. We walked for about 15 minutes because Sophie was getting cranky. The kids are sleeping right now and I just had lunch.. When Ricky (daddy) gets home we are going to go for another walk. So far that is all that has happened today.. ~CoUrTnEy~